December 24, 2011
2011 has been the best year of my life! This isn’t the first time I’ve said ‘this is my favorite year ever’. I said it in 2006 when I had emergency spine surgery and then a few months later was diagnosed with breast cancer. That year I learned to let people love me.
This year I’ve made huge changes. I’ve left a full-time job and expanded my private practice. This has given me more hours in my day to be present to what matters to me. Right now what has my attention is that loving others seems to get my juices flowing as much as feeling loved does!
I’m finding that this loving others thing gets richer the more time and attention I devote to it. Of course I’ve felt love for others, but until this year I didn’t get to enjoy it as often in the messy, colorful, slap-happy, weepy way I’m feeling it now. I didn’t have the time or energy for it! To really notice what I might be missing by devoting so much time to activities that didn’t feed my soul.
Having given myself this amazing gift of more personal decision-making power around how I spend my time, I’m wondering if it will be possible that 2012 will be the best year of my life. That would make it two years in a row. For today I’m focusing on not letting one positive, sparkling thought about someone go unsaid, and to see how many of the critical, dull ones I can keep to myself. Whether that will make 2012 the best year ever remains to be seen. But if I can stick with this intention, who cares!!