March 18, 2012
“I am kind—except when I’m not. I am scared–sometimes. I am pretty good at engaging with people—except when I’m feeling insecure. I am tall—except that I’m shrinking so how long will that last? I am thin—but as I get older it can relate more to looking haggard than thin!”
I’m wondering if there’s any practical or compelling reason to keep circulating these statements about myself in my head. Because here’s the rub. When I already think I know who I am, does that somehow shape or, more importantly, limit who I might really be, or how I might transform with time?
If I hold on to an ‘I am’, is it possible that I may not notice when I’m being a rotter, because I’m holding on to some crazy, untrue belief about myself that I’m always kind? If I drop the belief that I’m (always) kind, I suspect I might be more open to the possibility that of course I am, and yet sometimes I’m not. Which opens the door for me to be kinder. All of which begs the question, does this apply to all my ‘I am’s’?
Kind of exciting to see who might show up if I simply drop the I am’s and allow myself to be whoever I am in the moment.